Pandora's Anxious Adventure

So I have this story highlight section on my Instagram called "Musical Thoughts".   Sidebar the little title section didn't have enough space to put the word thoughts so I used the emoji thought bubble convey the idea I digress, but basically, it is a highlight section where I post ALLL of the music I am appreciating, or want to appreciate. I share musicians, bands and artists I want my friends to know about. So I figured why not, make a corresponding section on my blog where I can talk more about the one thing I've had a burning passion for. So without further rambling, I present the first Musical Thoughts blog post on featured artist NAO. Back Story NAO is a British soul singer. I first heard about NAO in one of my deep dives through the popular British music scene. Usually, I do that by listening to BBC Radio 1 and Radio 1Xtra and supplement it with the BBC Sound Of...List. NAO was featured on the BBC Sound Of 2016 list and from my first listen of her s

I am fiercely and powerfully overwhelmed by life right now. Everything seems to be sitting on me and it is getting to be rather draining. So instead of complaining about it, I am going to make a list of ways that I try and relieve some of that pressure. 1. Praying and Reading the Bible   This one is a little more specific to me and my spiritual background. In the past, I have found most of the times I have been at true peace and calm, have been the times I am my closest to the Lord and my spirituality. Lately, I've drifted away and I really want to to use this year to get back to that place of peace and understanding.  2. Write   I have never considered myself a writer. Writing is a release for me. When my thoughts get too bottled up, my feelings have gotten a little too hard to handle and I'm not comfortable sharing it with the world around me; I write. I have notebooks for days with random stories, that are partly fiction wrapped up in my hopes and dreams. Stolen mom

There are currently two drafts sitting on my dashboard to be written. One of those drafts feels wild and all over the place, the other one I made myself cry because of how mean I was to myself. When I hear people describe me as a nice or positive person, it feels slightly fraudulent. I begin to think that I'm not that nice of a person, I say incredibly hurtful things with growing frequency and I say the most hateful and hurtful things to myself. It's like I am constantly looking in a mirror and my own reflection is bullying me. So many photos sitting on my phone. They never see the light of day. It's a shame. As I am writing this I'm trying to find a picture to pair with this post and a playlist to pair with it. And a majority of my thoughts are critical, mean and downright nasty. To be quite honest, I am on the verge of tears and ready to quit writing. It's really hard to find a moment in my life I am truly proud of that I have not somehow tainted w