Pandora's Anxious Adventure

Hahahahaha, it’s been a minute. The world is catching up to what most black folks already knew and we’re still HIGH KEY dealing with a world pandemic but also pretending everything is fine. Basically, the world is dealing with its shit the way I deal with my shit. Avoidance. But we not here to talk about the world. We here to talk about me and how I’m coping. And my response to that is....I’m not. I am not dealing well. I actually had to up my dosage on my anti-depressants and most definitely had a full-blown anxiety attack the week before I went back to working in an office. And if I’m being honest. I’m tired. But the bright side is I’m not worn out. I feel like there is a lil light somewhere in this. I won’t call it the light at the end of the tunnel, but it is a light I needed. So the positives, happy things are happening in the lives of some of my close friends. I have been able to spend some time with friends recently. I’m back to having a separated home and workspace. P...

Let us take a moment to remember all the quarantine snacks that barely made it to quarantine.  And we're back Why y'all ain't tell me being on ADHD meds will have you eating like a bird. I can barely clear a plate, let alone buss it down properly on major holidays. I only cleared one plate this Christmas and I am HURT. Look I get that ya girl shouldn't be vacuuming down food like I'm Kirby or some shit, but can I not feel spectacular off about eating. I've gone from a decent appetite to literally a non-existent appetite. And while this is great for the gut getting skinny, I don't particularly think it's the healthiest approach. Do not get me wrong, I love that I have slightly more control over the amount of food I intake but I don't think to go almost24 hours on snacks and cereal is great for becoming a Grade-A snack. Probably being slightly over-stressed about work over the past few months and more recently being stuck at home with th...

Quick update for the folks who don’t know...ya girl got the official diagnosis for anxiety and ADHD. yay😒 Any-who’s official diagnosis means treatment and right now that looks like a being on medication for me. The meds from the last few months had me POOPED, DRAINED, EXHAUSTED. I’m actively still all these things but that’s from a hell of my own creation. I digress but the point is I hadda have that switched TF up. Now we’ve dropped some ADHD meds into the mix and what was beginning to feel like the right cocktail had become a full on scam. I’m typing this at my desk with better focus but feeling like a space head. I’m filling out of it. Well not feeling high functioning in the people them office. Just well wanna lay down and space out. But we can’t do that yet. I don’t like this shit. Nope. Not a fan. Rather be out of focus and feeling on 100 than that this. Fix it sweet Jesus. This is the second time I’ve had this day mix of meds and the second time I’ve felt like th...

Making a return to this page and blog space after a deep dive off the anxiety and depression high board. I’m switching up some tactics on this page. Gonna be a lot more true to self and basically document how I handle an overwhelming feeling of anxiety while trying to get to some semblance of where I want to be in life. I’m still gonna talk about all the things I said I would, I even have some events lined up to attend. Definitely changing names again cause I’ve finally found my brand. One I doubt is gonna change for a while. So here we are, off again on this blogging adventure. Enjoy these pictures of when I was doing things. I remember the weekend at the museum. The other one doesn’t even rig a bell as tho what my plans were. That one time I went to a Science Museum Me going somewhere....no clue where though. Will I edit this post, I don’t know. Was this written while I was trying to make it through an extremely long and exhausting work day, you bet your fish it was. ...