Anxiety Chronicles: Pouring One Out For Our Quarantine Snacks

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Let us take a moment to remember all the quarantine snacks that barely made it to quarantine. 

And we're back

Why y'all ain't tell me being on ADHD meds will have you eating like a bird. I can barely clear a plate, let alone buss it down properly on major holidays. I only cleared one plate this Christmas and I am HURT.

Look I get that ya girl shouldn't be vacuuming down food like I'm Kirby or some shit, but can I not feel spectacular off about eating. I've gone from a decent appetite to literally a non-existent appetite. And while this is great for the gut getting skinny, I don't particularly think it's the healthiest approach. Do not get me wrong, I love that I have slightly more control over the amount of food I intake but I don't think to go almost24 hours on snacks and cereal is great for becoming a Grade-A snack.

Probably being slightly over-stressed about work over the past few months and more recently being stuck at home with the whole COVID-19 situation might not be as helpful to maintaining a structured diet. I probably should put myself on a meal schedule, at least until I get the hang of the whole working from home thing.

That's kinda all I got for now. 

[This is a very late post, I've finally found the best way to label all these random posts I have sitting in my drafts. Cause most of the time, they are coming from some form of my anxiety. Sometimes they come from anxiety spirals, sometimes they come from me seeing the physical manifestations of my anxiety. And they have been a great way for me to chronicle how I have been handling my mental health. So if you want to see what anxiety and ADHD would like with through a black girl/lady here it is.]

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