Anxiety Chronicles: Anxiety Dump 1

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Quick update for the folks who don’t know...ya girl got the official diagnosis for anxiety and ADHD. yay😒

Any-who’s official diagnosis means treatment and right now that looks like a being on medication for me. The meds from the last few months had me POOPED, DRAINED, EXHAUSTED. I’m actively still all these things but that’s from a hell of my own creation. I digress but the point is I hadda have that switched TF up. Now we’ve dropped some ADHD meds into the mix and what was beginning to feel like the right cocktail had become a full on scam.

I’m typing this at my desk with better focus but feeling like a space head. I’m filling out of it. Well not feeling high functioning in the people them office. Just well wanna lay down and space out. But we can’t do that yet.

I don’t like this shit. Nope. Not a fan. Rather be out of focus and feeling on 100 than that this.


Fix it sweet Jesus.

This is the second time I’ve had this day mix of meds and the second time I’ve felt like this so honestly I’m probably gonna cut it out or save it for emergencies.

That is all for our very first mental dump...I’m gonna call it anxiety dump. Cause honestly that’s basically what it is.

No playlist but might I suggest listening to Motivation by Normani, some Kacey Musgraves, Celine Dion. Just some suggestions.

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