Happy Valentimes Day, My Sweet Baboushkas
I have to plan out my Valentine's Day or risk getting super in my feelings.
Like I get into a rather depressive yet reflective vibe for a few days, especially in the days leading up to Valentine's Day. So whatever plans I made, have to live up to expectations or that'll dampen my mood for a good week. Then it's just an extended few days after of sad music.
Not gonna lie, this day has been an excessively angsty one for me personally, as someone who is perpetually single and tends to be surrounded by many folks in multiple different stages of a relationship each year. I start to fixate on a lot of the things that I view as unfulfilled personal goals of my childhood, the lack of a substantial romantic relationship being the focal point for this particular period of angst.
But now that I'm older and wiser though ya girl is high-key not so fixated on being companionless and surrounded by relationships. It helps that I've always had spectacular friends that get this odd angst-ridden quirk of mine and have been there to push me into finding love and peace within myself. They have also been there to go out with me and help me bury my emotions around this time of the month. I've gone with on mini shopping sprees, danced the night away and laughed bellyful laughs. But that's because I planned for days like that. I didn't want to spend my college experience moping and my friends helped me see I definitely didn't want to spend it moping over guys and being single.
But for the first time in almost 5 years, I have no steady plans. NONE. I'm not going out on the town or taking myself out for a lil' date. I'm not sure how to feel honestly. I've done so many Galentine's and spent much money on myself too, this the first time I might just stay in. I won't try to cover my feelings with going out, I won't try and escape my thoughts by going to a club either. That's weird to type out.
I guess eventually when I can afford to I might replace going out with creating a new experience altogether, like a trip to an unexpected place. Maybe I'll go aboard next year for Valentine's take myself to a surprise city.
Until that time I have a good number of playlists about love and intimacy, Netflix, Hulu and Amazon Prime have some lovely romance selections and the wine has been chilling. The only thing missing is my snack for the night. And I guess, I still have plans for my Valentine's Day after all.
And while we're talking about love and intimacy, guess I'll drop another post and playlist on that tomorrow until then, here's a playlist for when fall all the way off the deep end to the ever eternal clouds of love.
Your Eternally Sappy Average Gyal
Like I get into a rather depressive yet reflective vibe for a few days, especially in the days leading up to Valentine's Day. So whatever plans I made, have to live up to expectations or that'll dampen my mood for a good week. Then it's just an extended few days after of sad music.
Not gonna lie, this day has been an excessively angsty one for me personally, as someone who is perpetually single and tends to be surrounded by many folks in multiple different stages of a relationship each year. I start to fixate on a lot of the things that I view as unfulfilled personal goals of my childhood, the lack of a substantial romantic relationship being the focal point for this particular period of angst.
But now that I'm older and wiser though ya girl is high-key not so fixated on being companionless and surrounded by relationships. It helps that I've always had spectacular friends that get this odd angst-ridden quirk of mine and have been there to push me into finding love and peace within myself. They have also been there to go out with me and help me bury my emotions around this time of the month. I've gone with on mini shopping sprees, danced the night away and laughed bellyful laughs. But that's because I planned for days like that. I didn't want to spend my college experience moping and my friends helped me see I definitely didn't want to spend it moping over guys and being single.
But for the first time in almost 5 years, I have no steady plans. NONE. I'm not going out on the town or taking myself out for a lil' date. I'm not sure how to feel honestly. I've done so many Galentine's and spent much money on myself too, this the first time I might just stay in. I won't try to cover my feelings with going out, I won't try and escape my thoughts by going to a club either. That's weird to type out.I guess eventually when I can afford to I might replace going out with creating a new experience altogether, like a trip to an unexpected place. Maybe I'll go aboard next year for Valentine's take myself to a surprise city.
Until that time I have a good number of playlists about love and intimacy, Netflix, Hulu and Amazon Prime have some lovely romance selections and the wine has been chilling. The only thing missing is my snack for the night. And I guess, I still have plans for my Valentine's Day after all.
And while we're talking about love and intimacy, guess I'll drop another post and playlist on that tomorrow until then, here's a playlist for when fall all the way off the deep end to the ever eternal clouds of love.
Your Eternally Sappy Average Gyal
Comments
Post a Comment