I am fiercely and powerfully overwhelmed by life right now. Everything seems to be sitting on me and it is getting to be rather draining. So instead of complaining about it, I am going to make a list of ways that I try and relieve some of that pressure. 1. Praying and Reading the Bible This one is a little more specific to me and my spiritual background. In the past, I have found most of the times I have been at true peace and calm, have been the times I am my closest to the Lord and my spirituality. Lately, I've drifted away and I really want to to use this year to get back to that place of peace and understanding. 2. Write I have never considered myself a writer. Writing is a release for me. When my thoughts get too bottled up, my feelings have gotten a little too hard to handle and I'm not comfortable sharing it with the world around me; I write. I have notebooks for days with random stories, that are partly fiction wrapped up in my hopes and dreams....
I have to plan out my Valentine's Day or risk getting super in my feelings. Like I get into a rather depressive yet reflective vibe for a few days, especially in the days leading up to Valentine's Day. So whatever plans I made, have to live up to expectations or that'll dampen my mood for a good week. Then it's just an extended few days after of sad music. Not gonna lie, this day has been an excessively angsty one for me personally, as someone who is perpetually single and tends to be surrounded by many folks in multiple different stages of a relationship each year. I start to fixate on a lot of the things that I view as unfulfilled personal goals of my childhood, the lack of a substantial romantic relationship being the focal point for this particular period of angst. But now that I'm older and wiser though ya girl is high-key not so fixated on being companionless and surrounded by relationships. It helps that I've always had spectacular friends that get ...
Having watched this most recent installment/episode of Red Table Talk and seeing how my social spaces have been interacting with all the information regarding the situation. I had a few core thoughts to get off my chest: What Jada did with August is fucked. Make no mistake. A part of me wanted to call it predatory but then I sat and thought about all the relationships I've seen and talk folks through the years, this shit ain't new. I’ve seen friends do this in their own interpersonal relationships. They’ll believe they are open to getting to know new people after ending things either amicably or even after a volatile ending, either one. But they never fully deal with the healing process of ending the previous relationship, not professionally. And in the process meet folks, they’ll be interested but not that interested. Enjoy their company but in the back of their mind wait for a new opportunity with the previous person. And issa a lot of folks (man, woman and bby non-binaries) ...
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