I am fiercely and powerfully overwhelmed by life right now. Everything seems to be sitting on me and it is getting to be rather draining. So instead of complaining about it, I am going to make a list of ways that I try and relieve some of that pressure. 1. Praying and Reading the Bible This one is a little more specific to me and my spiritual background. In the past, I have found most of the times I have been at true peace and calm, have been the times I am my closest to the Lord and my spirituality. Lately, I've drifted away and I really want to to use this year to get back to that place of peace and understanding. 2. Write I have never considered myself a writer. Writing is a release for me. When my thoughts get too bottled up, my feelings have gotten a little too hard to handle and I'm not comfortable sharing it with the world around me; I write. I have notebooks for days with random stories, that are partly fiction wrapped up in my hopes and dreams....
I have to plan out my Valentine's Day or risk getting super in my feelings. Like I get into a rather depressive yet reflective vibe for a few days, especially in the days leading up to Valentine's Day. So whatever plans I made, have to live up to expectations or that'll dampen my mood for a good week. Then it's just an extended few days after of sad music. Not gonna lie, this day has been an excessively angsty one for me personally, as someone who is perpetually single and tends to be surrounded by many folks in multiple different stages of a relationship each year. I start to fixate on a lot of the things that I view as unfulfilled personal goals of my childhood, the lack of a substantial romantic relationship being the focal point for this particular period of angst. But now that I'm older and wiser though ya girl is high-key not so fixated on being companionless and surrounded by relationships. It helps that I've always had spectacular friends that get ...
Making a return to this page and blog space after a deep dive off the anxiety and depression high board. I’m switching up some tactics on this page. Gonna be a lot more true to self and basically document how I handle an overwhelming feeling of anxiety while trying to get to some semblance of where I want to be in life. I’m still gonna talk about all the things I said I would, I even have some events lined up to attend. Definitely changing names again cause I’ve finally found my brand. One I doubt is gonna change for a while. So here we are, off again on this blogging adventure. Enjoy these pictures of when I was doing things. I remember the weekend at the museum. The other one doesn’t even rig a bell as tho what my plans were. That one time I went to a Science Museum Me going somewhere....no clue where though. Will I edit this post, I don’t know. Was this written while I was trying to make it through an extremely long and exhausting work day, you bet your fish it was. ...
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